I can't believe I'm even considering this!

I've always been told to "keep a journal" but the truth is I hate writing. However, I'm going to give it a try. I have had some life changing experiences in the past 3 years and they continue to catch me off-guard at times. Perhaps writing will help.

The one unique thing is that I know where I am supposed to be, but I'm not there yet. I see myself as being in the "batter's box" in a baseball game. I'm definitely in the game but it's not my turn at bat. My turn will come and then I will have reached the place I know I'm supposed to be. I don't expect anyone to understand that but it would be nice if they did.

So, in the meantime, I'm trying to learn not to need answers to the questions of "why, when, how". I know the "who" but the rest is a mystery to me. I wish God would be as clear with me about the other questions as He was about the "who".