Dr. Phil and Wayne Dyer

I have watched both of these men and listened to what they say about life and relationships. The things they say make so much sense...why are they so hard to do? I'm supposed to be practicing ways to decrease my anxiety. I'm apparently wound pretty tight most of the time, even when I think I am relaxed. I'm not sure I'd know what relaxed feels like.

I think my persistent state of anxiety goes way back to my childhood when I spent my time trying to figure out what I was doing wrong to make my mother so angry with me. I never did figure it out. I don't think I met her expectations. She didn't meet mine either. In spite of it all, when she died we both had reached a level of love and acceptance for each other that could never have been attained without the trauma of sickness and death.

I want to be less anxious so that when I get where I'm going, I can be there in a healthy way...fully present and with the old crap behind me.