I Wonder Why

Tomorrow is Good Friday and Sunday is Easter. Its been about 4 years since I stopped attending St. Luke's MCC and since I left I've not been able to find the "right" place for me. I want someplace that gives me the same worship experiences that I had at St. Luke's. Actually, I think the problem is that I got used to the safety I felt there with Frankye as the pastor. I was able to really experience everything from "smells and bells" to altar calls and speaking in tongues. I trusted her to teach me about all the different ways to worship and still feel safe.

I don't know why I'm having such a hard time. Maybe I just haven't found the right place. Maybe I just haven't felt safe enough. It's funny...I've never felt afraid of God...just the people who worship God. I don't know what the fear is all about. I wonder if I'll ever know.