I'm Owned

Your spiritual calling will own you. It will call to you with a force unlike any other job or career. You don’t follow your calling because it’s neat or cool. You follow it because within the overwhelming energy is a love so tender and calm that it humbles you to tears. I didn't search for it. It chose me. I had some arguing and fighting to do before I'd beaten myself up enough to see that the visions were true. However, it was always right there waiting and it was never patient about waiting. I think that people who have a special mission know what it is. No praying, questioning, or debating as to what it might be. You know what it is and it knows where to find you no matter how hard you may try to turn your back and hide from it. You don't hesitate, you don't meditate about it. It's there and it's yours to do and you know it instantly in your heart. You know that regardless of how big or small you may feel, that you are the one who must do it. It's not a martyr thing. It's just a knowing. It whispers to you. It owns you.

(Copyright 2004, Skye Thomas, Tomorrow’s Edge)

I'm owned, and I accept it. I know I was changed for God's calling and I have committed my life to it. I am humbled by knowing God wants me for the job and I have come to love it deeply with my heart and soul.

I'm owned, and I am grateful that God has called me to a life of love. I'm grateful for the people around me that love me despite the effects my life changes have had on them. Despite their doubts about what happened to me, they continue to love me beyond what I deserve. They continue to invest themselves in my life and I love them dearly for it.

I'm owned, and I pray for the opportunity to live out my calling soon. In the meantime, I wait in gratitude for the present while looking to the future.