Random thoughts

I was listening to the radio today and heard Janis Joplin singing, "Freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose", and started thinking about it. She's right.

"Good Christian people" should be redundant. Instead it is an oxymoron.

I went to Ash Wednesday service last night and cried through the whole thing. The sounds, the smells, the feel, the music, the time of year, all brought back my time at St Luke's MCC. I don't miss all the "good Christian people" there but I miss Frankye as my pastor. I also miss the things we did for church services, like sitting up until late Saturday night before Palm Sunday fixing all the palms we had cut earlier that day. I miss burning them for the ashes for Ash Wednesday. I miss how something so "ordinary" can become so sacred.

If you've ever seen the musical "Chicago", there is a song in there called "Mr. Cellophane Man". Sometimes I feel just like he describes himself.

And speaking of Chicago..."Does anyone really know what time it is? Does anybody really care?" I think I understand my mother better when she said that the world had changed in ways that made her feel like she didn't belong anymore. I'm starting to feel that way.

I've been thinking today about love and words from a song keep running through my head. I don't even know the name of the song but I remember my father singing this one line from it..."what kind of fool am I?"

I guess it comes from watching too much Maury Show with all the DNA testing to determine the baby's father, but I just keep thinking that with all the bizarre twists and turns, I'm going to hear someone say, "Anna Nicole, you are NOT the baby's mother!!".

I gave up TV for Lent. It amazes me that even without the influence of television, I still have some pretty weird thoughts rolling through my head.

And finally for tonight:

I love my dog and she loves me
We're as happy as can be.